You make menton that you just married. Do you not love your husband? Why would you consider seeing this guy again if you just married and love your husband? Why did you get married if you have loved this guy all along? It comes down to who do you love. Either stay faithful to your husband or get a divorce and be with this guy. It's a choice you have to make. Just because you have feelings for this man does not mean you have to act on them. You can put them in the past if you choose to. I've been in your shoes and it's not an easy place to be but it is a choice.