I completely relate to the "just existing" thought. I feel that way too. People in my life just don't understand my being anti-social and not just going to the gym or whatever other social gathering they suggest. I guess if we stopped being so anti-social we could do more than just "exist" but that's easier said than done! I have to pat myself on the back for getting a shower sometimes...so going to the gym is just too much. Anyway, I understand.....