I used to think about my ex dying and it would make me very sad.. sometimes I think about family members dying. I often thing about death in more of a general sense and kinda freak out because to me everything is pointless.. like I'll be doing something and think that it's pointless or be driving around and be like "all these people are going to die one day" or I'll think about seeing family members in a casket or how I'm going to be old, sick, and dying one day.. thinking about my regrets and how I really don't want to die alone- like I would want someone to be there with me. I think about death a lot and have kind of a nihilistic attitude.