The more I read and research bi polar the more I see how it affected my life when I had no idea that is what it was. I mean I can see now where I assumed 2 manic episodes for sure and now I am suspect of a couple more. I have exibited some incredibly erratic behavior in my life and now I am beginning to understand what may have happened. I am glad my T is on board with me to filter thru my life and figure this all out.
But then all I think is wow...if I had just bothered to figure this out 5, 10, 20 years ago...my gosh could I have had a better life?!?
Surely I could have avoided some of the hell and pain I have experienced and caused!