I'm sending you love and hope you feel better soon. I don't know what is supposed to happen as I'm just beginning to accept and no longer deny I have PTSD. I didn't want too because I've been so so strong most of my life. I can only say that what you explained I go through as well. At times it is so much and very overwhelming. I have other situations as well but speaking of this one too you. I'm trying to read and learn as much as I can about it in order to know how to help myself and know what to do when these situations happen. I'm also trying to keep track of what makes it kick in so I know what things make it worse or better. I wish you hope and happiness.