I know you all can relate but its been bugging me here lately that I've been having to fake normal for a while now. I used to go to a support group and it was great for a number of years but as my anxiety issues got worse going there became torture not the needed sanctuary it had once been. Anyway, since then a lot of new people have entered my life through my son becoming engaged. I cant tell these people about myself and I feel like I am hiding myself and it doesnt feel right. Its one of the reasons I have come back to the online forum. Because I have no one else who understands what we go through. Anyway, I just needed to kind of 'say' it out loud because I know my husband would not understand this feeling in a million years. He already told me a couple of weeks ago that I use my issues as a cop out and that everyone gets anxious. You'd think after all this time he would kind of get it but he just wants thing the way they used to be. I'm not sure how far back that is now since we have been dealing with the bp for 7 years. Anyway, thats my vent for now, thanks for listening.