Hi, sorry for the delayed reply. School has managed to keep me busy this past week and though I have been on, I haven't done much posting.

I wanted to thank you both so much for replying in the first place!

I think you might be right about a counselor or a therapist. I was thinking about it this past week. If I cannot afford a therapist outside of school, maybe I can speak to the school counselor. My mother tells me she spoke to hers. I'm sure they still do that? It might be hard regardless as it's still a social situation. However, since it will be one on one, I imagine it won't be as scary as a classroom.

I'm not sure if that's possible. I've wondered if I have some underlying disorder that was never caught but I haven't really considered it. Perhaps if I do speak to a therapist, I can bring that up, as well. Asperger's has come up in a few of my past posts on other sites. I've never truly thought about it, though.

I like that advice. Going with the flow. I try hard to socialize and my inability to do so accurately can sometimes pile on stress. It can be rough at times. I get... frustrated, I guess you could say. Maybe I should try to go with the flow more. The hard part is that I don't always know what the flow even is.

I do make online friends with relative ease. I feel it's simpler because I don't have to see them face to face. It hasn't helped me offline yet but perhaps it will in due time.

I try to be as accepting as possible. I think.. .my main problem is that I don't know how to express this. I'm not even sure that makes sense. I never thought much about it until high school. And then I only gave it thought because after I had gotten in a fight (long back story there) I over heard the other person's mother talking about me and referring to me as a sociopath. Saying that I would watch her child cry and not do anything to comfort her child. We were "best friends" for some time. While it is true that I watch people cry and don't comfort them... it's not because I don't want to but because in the moment, I don't know how. I didn't realize that until I overheard the conversation and really gave it thought. I can feel. I can accept and care. I just don't "get" it.

I'm rambling. Anyway. I did manage to socialize a bit Monday. Only because we had to for a group project. It was tough, though but I'm still alive. I hope it gets easier with time.

Thank you both for your advice. It means a lot to me to get any replies at all.