Hi Ange

I feel your pain. This sounds like a really bad situation. It is confusing to be in a relationship where you are abused because it is not bad all the time. There has to be some good in it or you wouldn't feel the love. I understand the confusion well because my boyfriend became more and more violent until it ended in tragedy.

Are you in counseling? It sounds like you may be codependent. (I was). When somebody has so little respect for you and is treating you in such painful ways it is unlikely that change will occur in his behavior, except to get worse. The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior.

Will you ever get over him? Mostly. That will take time. Lots of time. I believe you genuinely care for him but that is not enough to make him reciprocate your love. You cannot change him. You can only change yourself.

Feel free to PM me if you would like.