Unfortunately nope if I switch I'll be moved from a subsidised patient status to a private patient because I specified my doc.. and that means more money coming out of my pockets.

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Anyway, during work just now I was so so so down that I actually.. did it. For sure I knew I was going to fail, but some part of me knew that it might work even. Not a good place to be in right now, and I'm somehow scared that if I go to work tomorrow I would.. do it again. It's not work that causes it. I just happen to just feel so zapped out of energy to continue on and so I feel like quitting. But *sigh* I don't see a point in hospitalisation.