I know you're right, these folks don't really have a need to know. A few of them will be a part of my family in a year, it feels weird not letting them know as my own family knows and everyone is ok with it, they're supportive in their own ways. I think it really has to do with my being part of a support group for several years and being able to talk things out with like minded people and since I had to stop going I haven't had that outlet for 'letting it all hang out' so to speak. I know its weird not being able to go to a support group for mental illness because it makes your mental illness worse but it became a source of great anxiety for me. I guess wanting to 'come out' I miss the support I used to have but I'm certain that's the wrong place to find it. So continuing the way things are is what I will do. I just felt the need to talk it out. I'm talking about future in laws by the way, these people will be a part of my life for as long as my son is married, hopefully always.