I can go back as far as 5th grade to say I was a depressed kid, very much so in 6th then ok for a number of years. I cycled some when I was a senior in hs but not severe, I think I was cyclothymic for years with a lot of mild depression, I slept through the late 90s when I wasn't dealing with my sons and their school and things like that. In late 2003 I became very depressed and anxious, sought help in Jan 04 was put on ADs by gp and hypomanic but didn't realize it at the time, quit taking them after a rage reaction. Seemed ok after that. Summer 05 I began chaperoning my sons to concerts, got into it, became a fan of an emo band, got on a fansite and struck up a friendship with a guy. Fall 05 through May 06 I was happy go lucky, in my second teenagehood, sleeping less, hypersexual, I wrote a 345 page fanfiction in 2 months and washaving an online affair with the friend. Tried to break Iit off, sank into despair, got on an AD in 6 weeks I was crazy manic, back with guy and bought a $1000 plane ticket to see him. I got caught thank goodness but it was a mess and I crashed, should have gone to the hospital but my husband convinced admissions he could take care of me. I was mute at the time after crying nonstop 3 hours and 2 toilet rolls of tissue later. At this point my pdoc realized I was bp, he didn't know about my 'activities' until then. I was put on a mood stabilizer with the AD and 7 months later I finally pulled out of the depression.