I sympathize i really do. I'm at the point now where I won't look in the mirror. My doctor very tactfully suggested that I need to lose weight. I'm on lithium and seroquel. I guess it's not all the meds. I am not being as diligent as you. In my case energy drinks and beer has a lot to do with it. I used to be slim even when I was pregnant. Olanzapine was the worst offender and I ended up with an ed after that one.I tried running but I can't seem to stick with anything. I keep telling myself I'll start over my next date is sept 1st. Apparently my thyroid is out of whack too. I go from not caring to not eating anything. I really hope you find a solution. I admire your dedication and am sure it will pay off in the long run.