Hi All,
This is my first post (nervous)
I've been with my boyfriend for 2yrs, during our time together we've split up one time for 3 months. Our relationship has been for the most part the most positive and stable I've had thus far. I did not disclose my being BP immediately. In fact I probably offered being BP too late into our time being together and likely at the most inappropriate time (pssshhhh typical.) I'd say since my full disclosure and commitment to therapy/meds things are for the most part 'normal' and seemingly loving. We would be considered as living together like married roles.
Here's the problem, he isn't interested in being married. This morning admitting "I am a liability" assuring me he loves me....
I guess rumination is my theme today, I'm trying to not let the stigma of BP control or define my worth. I'm confused, I'm sad...and yeah a little mad.
UGH, planning on a long run and dose of antipsychotic -to- bed. Any advice to stay in control and not let this trigger my mania?