Medications, as i've learned are the lifeline for me in my life right now. i think my problem was i didn't want to have a quick fix, but believe me there is something good about it. i am a lifer on meds i'm sure i'll be on them the rest of my life because i've tried going off of them and anger gets out of control, so does mind fog. if i only knew what i was putting others through i would have downed a bottle just to be in control and not a bother. it probably has alot to do with my diagnosis of schitzoaffective bipolar and head injuries etc, one million other things it seems, but when i look back i see a bad person i never want to be or see again. the meds do work for me, even though i sill have problems with anxiety, i am learning through yoga now to rest my mind. i am also happy i lived to be 52 and be able to look back and see the story play out for me.