MotherMan, I too have violent thoughts about hurting other people. Usually it's with a gun and sometimes I have thoughts about killing my parents or holding a bunch of people hostage. I no longer have my guns so that helps control my impulses. Maybe you could make sure your knives are put away someplace where you can't see them (unless they are being used.) My meds help me keep my thoughts in perspective. They are thoughts--they are not me--I'm a loving and compassionate person--I'd truly never want to hurt anybody. There is nothing wrong with you, you are struggling with symptoms of a illness............D.