I agree with everything that has been said. Joining a club or a group at a college is a great way to make friends and helps your mood. I'm not Asian, but my best friend is and I joined her Asian club and made some friends at our college. We all went to the beach which was nice even though I'm not super social and I enjoyed their Japanese candies. Also on the side note on the wanting a relationship, being outgoing even though you're awkward isn't a bad thing. I'm awkward from my autism and when I first met my significant other I asked for his cell number then a few days later asked him to go out on a date with me. His friends thought it was kinda weird, but I didn't care and he didn't either. I hope everything goes well for you and you manage to reach your pdoc. Maybe you can leave a message telling them when you're available to accept calls?