I wanted to let everyone know that I'm okay, but that I won't be able to participate for a few days. I am very, very rollercoasterish and can go from okay to rock bottom very, very fast and when I'm working long hours I find this place very, very triggering. I do nothing all day except sit in front of the computer doing my work and going on PC and, I can't describe it, but it makes me feel very, very alone and then the other thoughts start creeping in.

I want to thank everyone for your kind thoughts as I continue to battle my inner demons.

As for the hospital near me, they were recommended to me by my T and according to the website, they have a very nice psych department. I hope I don't have to go but I'm not at all certain it's not going to come to that. The only reason I haven't is because the moods change so fast....

I am working straight until next Friday, then I'm taking some time off regardless of whether my husband wants me to or not. This job is literally killing me....

I can't stick around on any given day, but I'll try to drop in now and then just to let you know how I'm doing......not that it won't be totally different five minutes later.