Jackedback Welcome!!!I'm sorry you can't get a hold on you self inflicted problems, you do need to see a doc and T for sure!!! i would not want anyone i know to be hurting themselves, including you!!!Please try to control yourself if you feel like hurting yourself -think of all of us here who would be screaming don't do it!!!I also hope your arthritis gets to be not as bad, i also have arthritis and a on loritabs for the pain, but may be going in for the epidural shots soon too.Well i hope you have a good day and please stop hurting yourself.