Maybe I'm just back in denial, but I've been doing really well for the past month and I'm wondering if maybe I had just been over-sensitive, melodramatic , or something like that and not bipolar. Pretty much as soon as I started back on my meds I stopped taking them again. I honestly don't notice a mood difference on vs off now. So it's like, why would I take in chemicals that don't appear to be doing anything? Bipolar's supposed to be hard to diagnose, right? Maybe I over exaggerated. Maybe the doctors were searching for something that wasn't there. Maybe I thought I wanted them to. Who even knows. All I know is I'm feeling pretty good.