I dealt with bullying on a daily basis from 3rd grade on. I have schizoaffective/bipolar type and PTSD. I think your thoughts of hurting people stems from wanting to get back at those who hurt you. I'm sorry you're suffering. A psych doc can help figure out your diagnosis and maybe start you on medication. I'm not diagnosing you. I just suggest you be totally honest when talking to him/her. They won't think" they're crazy" which is what I thought so I wasn't honest, esp about hallucinations and voices. Good luck in getting help soon.

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