hello everyone, please help...im having really bad issues with myself as of lately and i feel completley sick to my stomach and feel like throwing up! im extremely anxious bc of this and my mind wont stop racing bc i think ive turned sick...Anyways..im a 24 yr female and i've always had rape fantasies, and a fantasy of being young and molested...what gets me off/turned on in these fantasies is the rapist's/molester's arousal, and how perverted he is and how bad he wants to have his way with me to fulfill his sick perverted needs.... but the thing that scares me the most, is that i sometimes get in the "rapists head" and i am that rapist..i start to think, well wat is really getting this man off? oh i know, the fact that shes young and tight and that must feel amazing for him...i get off on THAT. that turns me on. not the actual sex with a woman or a child bc iam not sexually attracted to either, and i am completley REPULSED! about sex with children..i feel sick right now for real and i feel like crying just writing this!! wat does this mean? does this mean im a pedo? in the fantasies of molestation its me who is getting molested..but i have read taboo stories about daddy/daughter (not into incest what so ever ewwww!) just for the molestation aspect of the story, such as him coming into the girls bedroom at night etc. and i masturbate to the girl in the story about her being young and tight and how that satisfies him...sorry if i offended anyone in anyway with my graphic details, but is this normal?? the "getting into the rapist's head" aspect? please help and plz dont be too harsh on me..i dont want to feel more depressed, but i do want honest non-attack answers. do people do this? bc ive been doing endless research online to see if there are other females who take on the role of the male and came accross nothing and im scared out of my mind!!