Seems like with my depression, I just get so overwhelmed to the point of not wanting to care. Not the feeling of not wanting to care about people, the feeling of all of the small things that I seem to worry over that comes along with the depression.

I just have ups and downs in the degrees of depression, which leads to the anxiety increase over little things. I don't want to care about the dishes not being done every day. Seems every room of the apartment I walk into I see all kinds of flaws in housekeeping. One day it doesn't bother me at all, then other days I just get overwhelmed and wish I could just put the issues to the side, and not dwell on all of the inperfections of my life.

My T tells me how much progress I have made. That helps for a while, then it is back to being in here alone all the time. Getting so agitated and cussing houshold appliances, and things. I do not want to care about these little things yet the get all blown out of proportion in my mind.

Then thing even like making this post sends worry and anxiety through my mind as I have so much trouble expressing how I feel. Just one day I would like to not care and worry about the massive series of worries that insist on running through my mind causing feelings of distress.

Thanks for listening.

Best Wishes-
~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!