You are welcome ((MillionaireWaltz)). I understand feeling "confused" and I hope I didn't confuse you even more. My main message is to "slow down" and "keep an open mind about yourself" too.

I think that spending time with a good therapist will help you to slowly figure it all out. I am glad to hear you are reaching out for help.

Patience, lots of patience and self care goes a long way.

(((Caring Hugs)))
OE