I have a few fetishes. One of which has gotten me in trouble since 6 yrs old, until now since I am no longer at home.

I love to dress up in women's lingerie with breast forms.
And I love receiving ****.
And a recent acquisition, I have an untested fantasy of being dominated by a woman. Not necessarily the bondage, whips, leather and latex, but the thought of being overpowered by a woman. By being submissive, and made to feel like the woman.but I still enjoy being the dominate one half the time.

And those make it extremely difficult to find someone, that's not a hardcore dominatrix.

I need advice on how I should deal with this.