Well is really seems your are in a mess, I am sorry. I know you say you have tried so many things and nothing has helped.. Could you have been trying too many things at once ? Kind of overloading yourself?

Waiting on medicatons to work are often like waiting for the your winning lottory numbers , who knows when or if they are going to pop up .... So in the meantime you need to need to do things about getting back on a schedule..

to start with .. Getting out of bed daily , go outside for a short walk or just sit in the sun for a while. Feed yourself at least 1200 calories of good healthy non processed food. Go back out side, Just soak up the clean air and sunlight.

Do just those things for a few days , it will become habit and your body will crave it.

Then you go about adding more... You don't have to feel happy to do these things ...

Waiting for medications ( my opinion) to make you feel better is useless .. In treating Bipolar I. I feel its maybe 10% medications and 90% pure hard work on yourself.

Minfulness, Meditation, Yoga, self grounding , diet, exercise.. <~~~ Not everything at once you just layers things on top of what you are doing that is working .

Ask yor Pdoc about a Out patient Plan that doesnt not revolve around a religion .

Bipolar is hard Its tough .. but it can be managed and your life will improve it just take work . You can do this .