Supanova- Yeah I have volunteered but, sadly, they do mind me crying or see my crying as "this person cannot handle anything, let's treat her like she is 5."

Actually this is kinda ironic. I went to this social facility today. It has alot of great stuff I want to try. But what really scared me, I was not even a member yet or had been through intake and already every staff member I saw was pushing me to work for them and answer their phone and do their work. For no pay. It was really scary and if it keeps up I don't know if I will continue to go back.

I want to volunteer but not when it is forced and I go to this new place to meet friends, not to do extremely stressful things like answer phones or work the front desk for them. My past volunteer work that has helped (other than them seeing my crying as a liability) has been working with animals or sorting donated food or soup kitchen work.

I really wish I had a friend to go with me to these places. It's so hard to do this all alone, mainly when I've been abused. It's hard for me to trust anyone.