Whilst we were in America my partner wrote a blog, and I was part of his blog, with happy snaps of both of us on it.
Since we've been home, he has gone into a deep depression, pushed me away and I've had minimal contact from him for a week.
I have been re reading the blog daily just to help me remember the good times and stay positive. Today I noticed he had updated it with a wrap up on the final days of our tour, which were spent partying in Vegas. At the end of the update, he puts a paragraph in about me, about how I'd had beauty treatments done in Vegas and I looked a million dollars.
I'm from the north of England originally, and we call our nearest and dearest 'our Fred' 'our Joan' etc. his last comment on the blog was 'she looked a million dollars our delljoy'. We used to teasingly call each other ' our delljoy' 'our Mitch' in reference to my north of England heritage. I'm taking this as a positive, that maybe he is ready to accept me back in his life again, that he thinks of me and feels close to me. Fingers crossed.