Hi woods,
I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Depression has it's way of taking the joy out of everything we once enjoyed. I think everyone has their own different way of getting happy, so I don't know if I can offer much help there. For me, happiness is seeing my family happy, healthy and safe. If everyone got along on top of that, I couldn't ask for anything more, but that rarely happens. I'm glad you are getting everything you want for Christmas (and more) and I wish you all the luck in finding that inner happiness.