I agree with LL. But I totally hear you. All I am capable of lately is circular thinking. It seems like all I'm able to do anymore is use distraction techniques. I get out to pay bills, make appointments, etc, but that's it. No work or anything. Next week I start school, very part time (one course, three hours) and then in a few weeks I start training for a really cool volunteer position. But I question if I'll be able to handle it. Because everything makes me feel trapped. Especially schedules. And I have never been that way. Only in the last few years. It's excruciating. I just hope that by jumping in and doing it and not letting the panic take over and run my life anymore I can move it to the back burner.
I wish you the best. If it helps, you can PM me anytime you want if you're freaking out about stuff. I don't mind. I am not super active in all the forums, I kind of jump from forum to forum and mostly check out the newcomer's forum and the social and games forums (for distraction of course). So it's easiest to get ahold of me via PM. to you...