Yes you should be angry that he said something like that to you but if that is what he thinks then it is good to know so you can decide if you want to continue to invest your heart in this relationship. It is possible to find a good man who will love you and stay by your side always even when there have come some very bad times. I've been married 27 years, it hasn't always been easy and I did some things in my mania that were very hurtful, but we managed to pull through it. You are worthy of love and care, of being cherished as a woman should be, having an illness doesn't make you any different than any other eoman in that regard. Don't let anyone make you feel less than your true worth. Also, ruminating will make you feel sick, talk to your therapist about this. Take care of yourself.