So I'm still living. And still in the dark corner. Failed.

T and pdoc appt coming soon and I... don't know whether I should tell them about my failed sui attempt. I don't feel like fighting anymore. What for fight when I can't see the end? T talked about the journey being a marathon, but here I am thinking "at least a marathon you can clearly see the end... all I see now is the words "I should just give up.""

Was half wanting to meet pdoc earlier the other day because of my attempt but.. again I thought about the previous session and how he didn't really bother to know about me.. so.. I gave up on the idea. Guess I'm alone now. T is just focusing more on other things...