Hello I hope things get better for you soon. I have depression as well, so I really hope you get the professional treatment that you deserve so that you feel better about yourself and your life. Please come to chat anytime you would like if I am in chat I would like to meet you. I am going to leave you the hotline number for depression in case you would like to talk to someone in person about how you are feeling 1-800-273-TALK. There are also meetings thatyou can attend as well NAMI and DBSA, DDA meetings they are all on the internet. All of these meetings are really good meetings for support. Take care sincerely Soidhonia