Realising what will truly make you happy is a inner quest I associate with.

There is a lot of introspection involved.

Here is where I am on my quest to inner peace:

I ask myself.

"With what exactly am I unhappy with?"
Shame and Guilt feelings. I feel like a burden to the people that I have caused harm to.
That they are only forgiving me out of pity.

"Can i change it?"
My actions that caused the feelings - my mistakes - I will not make them again.
The people that I have wronged: some chose to forgive me and some did not.

“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.” - bob marley

concentrate on the people that still wants to be part in my life.

I am spending a lot of time on myself. Getting fit, my appearance. Trying out new hobbies. Being kind to less the less fortunate. cutting myself some slack on the days that I feel low.
baby steps - the meds will helps me cope

I wish you good luck with you journey mack2!

6 weeks ago I felt like you do today - in a rut

I feel a great deal better already