(((((((((((Candy))))))))))))

I am sorry for your pain and anger about this. It is tragic, especially knowing that this man had people who loved and cared about him, and a good quality of life. I just don't want to see you let it drag you down. You have enough to deal with already. There's a quote that I keep running across that goes something like this:

"Refusing to forgive is like drinking poison and and hoping that someone else will get sick."

It's easier to let go before you have carried this around for a long time and it has gotten comfortable among your load.

Others have already looked at it from the doctor's point of view, but I want to add just a bit. It sounds cold that he said he had no remorse, but he might have had to say that for legal reasons, because if he said that he felt guilty it could be taken as an admission of wrongdoing, and that would seriously threaten his career especially with the legal quesions that already exist in this case. Losing a client to suicide is a therapist's (or doctor's) worst nightmare, but nobody can predict the future. Especially when someone doesn't want to be hospitalized, an involuntary hold can be a mistake too. Suicide rates spike right after patients are released from the hospital, and usually it isn't an option to keep them there forever. What kind of life would that be, anyway? Yes, in hindsight we can wish that the doctor had made a call at just the right time, or that someone had done something before the critical moment. It is tragic that it didn't happen.

TC,
Rap