Woods..... oh i wish i could come and bive you a big hug,i dont know the answers your looking for unfortunatley otherwise i would be happy myself.
I am hanging on by a thread literally,but i am trying to be strong but it is so difficult.I am gald you getting what you want for christmas,you are lucky,im the eldest of a big family so i got little from 16 onwards lol but i never minded too much i knew it was a struggle for my mother.
Hope you can find some good happiness out of this christmas x