I've learned in therapy that our abusers place their blame and the resulting guilt and shame on us ... THEIR VICTIMS.

Yes, I felt a lot of guilt for finally standing up to them and saying "Enough! ... No More!".

I don't feel guilty about it anymore though ... That's their crap, not mine.

If your father commits suicide, that is his crap, not yours.

Abusers like to hold crap like that over our heads to keep us under their thumbs.

It's a form of manipulative brainwashing to ensure we stay in check.

Call him on his crap ... Take care of YOU and whatever they decide to do because you've decided you aren't going to put up with their crap anymore is all on them.

Again, it's not easy to make these heavy decisions after being conditioned by our abusers to not stick up for ourselves ... However, our physical, emotional and spiritual well-being depend on it.

Think of a person you love and care about deeply and how bravely you'd defend them if you saw them being maltreated ... Now ... Apply that same love, care and concern towards yourself ...