All I know is that when a mother physically/emotionally/verbally abuses their child, it's bad enough ... But, when they sexually abuse their children ... OMG! ... It's even worse ... It's a horrid, life shattering experience that's extremely difficult to overcome.

I know it's a small consolation, but we are not alone in our experience of being sexually abused by our mothers ... You are a male survivor, I'm a female survivor ... I'm not sure if being a female would have made it any less difficult for you, but I think we both would have fared better in life had we never been molested by our mothers in the first place!