Hi BBDGURL,

Bipolar volcano indeed! Such a catalog of challenges. To limit what I notice to just four concerns:
1. Your mood swings are quick, and haven't been containable, either by your own means or with the help of professionals.
2. You're husband is near his departure point.
3. You are "one more missed day" away from not having a job
4. You don't think you can keep it together long enough to wait for your appt in October.

As no one has any idea what may work, I can just offer some suggestions for you to experiment with.

You said right at the top: "I have very rapid cycling, and severe generalized anxiety with multiple panic attacks a day" and "shaky, short of breath, and irritable" later on.

Perhaps with your husband's help, find a skilled practitioner in Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP), or sensory motor pyschotherapy. They will be able to help you allow your body's desperate attempts at communication find images or words that you can address, soothe, and, over time, heal or recover yourself from.

You probably could use time away from everyone, perhaps in a cabin deep in the woods, where you can just let the sensations run themselves out. Maybe a friend or someone for hire who would be there or "take a walk" as your moods dictate. Listen to Holly Cole's version of "Cry" and Florence and the Machine's tune "Shake it Out" for what I'm getting at.

Also, for self-care, research what you can on dialectical behavioral therapy online. They are keen on specific self-administered steps or checklists keyed to specific mental/life challenges.

Revu2