SoaS, I do the same things as you (almost - I don't chase women lol).
Every day I remember more and more bp things I did in the past, back to when I was about 14 years old.

Today I feel challenged and worried and useless. My boyfriend just came back to me after 2 months. He disappeared because he was dx with fibromyalgia and needed some time to sort it all out. He's in Missouri and I'm stuck here in Canada - I'm having a big surgery in 12 days, so I can't go down there and help him out. I feel sad and useless.