Cried myself to sleep last night. Woke up and am rather out of it today. Haven't done a damn thing and seem to, once again, be eating the not-as-healthy snack foods in replacement of meals and seem to be ignoring all the fresh veg I bought. One of my friends said he wishes I was still back in his town because he would have liked me to be able to go with him while he djs, and I broke right down over that. I also started bawling yesterday because I was trying out these egg cup things to see if I could make hard boiled eggs in them... and they tipped sideways and made a big mess and that was just something else I cried about.

And my eyes hurt because I've been watching Netflix all day.

And I was looking at my mood chart from July and August and it's sorta funny and pathetic how I can see my mood going further downhill.

Since I see my pdoc on the 3rd, I decided I was close enough to seeing him that it's ok to start on titrating up with the lamictal, so I'm going to take 75mg until I see him.

I went back in May for this stuff because I wanted to try and get things somewhat sorted before the next school year... and instead I'm starting it in the middle of a depression that seems to be going downhill