Hello skittles you are going through a rough time at this time. Are you still taking your medication? Your medication may help with some of the cravings that you are having. I am going to leave you the hotline numbers if you would like to call and talk to someone in person 1-800-DONT-CUT and 1-800-273-TALK for mental health issues. you may PM anytime Skittles I hope you know that, take care Sincerely Soidhonia