ultramar, I don't expect people to coach me or anything, but I'm saying that it would be nice if people were able to just be like "ok, maybe she's having a rough day, so I'll cut her some slack". Maybe that is unrealistic, but I do it all the time with people so I guess I expect to get from the world what I put into it.

I am externalizing how I feel. I'm actually pretty good at communicating my feelings, but people are always saying things like, "wow, that's rough and a unique problem" or "I don't know what to say. that sucks." I appreciate their effort, I really do. Its hard though and I'm not trying to sound conceited but I feel like I am more complex than most people. My therapists and friends agree.

To clarify what I was mentioning earlier, I do understand that I am responsible for my own actions. I think its fair to blame others if they hurt your feelings because it is their fault. About the snapping, what typically happens is that I am opening up about how I'm alone and going to be alone and I'm struggling and no one can help me. And then they will say something worthless and trite like "there are more fish in the sea" or "don't be sad" and I'll snap and explain very logically about how I am right and get fueled up and then apologize for doing so and tell them that I appreciate them trying to help.