Well Christmas is in a week and I just spoke to one of my brothers and of course he brought up my mom. We are having dinner at my sisters house in which whom my mom lived with. Thanksgiving went well no tears shed. I do fear that Christmas will bring lot's of tears .He mentioned to me that he wrote something special to read before we sit down for dinner and he would like everyone to say at least one memory that we have of our mom and the holidays. This is hard for me because I was doing so well and now it's going threw my head all over again. My boyfriend says that I need to stop dwelling and that it just makes things worse. I am lost once again.