Hello all,

I am new to this site, so I do apologize if this has been discussed before. Just looking for some support and guidance.

I was diagnosed last winter with PTSD after a former client attacked me (I was a mental health therapist for children in an inner city school). I actually had to quit my job as a result and have been struggling internally ever since. I worked so hard to get my master's degree, and here I am barely surviving and not using what I earned. I'm getting married in three weeks, and my fiancé is wonderful. He has been so patient with me, especially since I seem to have developed some depression after everything happened.

Lately, my anger has been my biggest concern. I never used to get angry. I have always been an anxious person and have been diagnosed and treated for GAD since the age of 10. But, my anxiety was always internalized. I never took it out on others, only myself. Recently, including today, I will get so angry that I throw things and don't care. I broke a salad bowl today and it didn't even phase me. I get so mad that I feel like I'm shaking inside and outside and I don't know how to calm down. I can't even identify a trigger for the anger, a lot of times things will be going great and I just snap.

I feel so awful because I know my fiancé gets the brunt of this behavior, and I have an appointment this week to get back into therapy and on medication again (I had lost both when I quit my job because I lost my health insurance and didn't qualify for Medicaid). I guess what I'm asking is if other people have experienced this kind of anger with anxiety disorders before? I feel like I should know the answer to this, but a lot of mental health professionals have a hard time knowing the answers when it comes to themselves. I know I'll find out more at my appointment this coming week, but I guess I'm just looking for some support. Thanks in advance, sorry for the length!