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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird
Does anyone else do this? I have this embarrassing habit, I know this sounds funny but I'll be walking around my house, having full blown conversations with people who I feel like are there, it could be someone I know or some random person. I just have this sense or feeling that somebody's there. I'll be looking at a chair or the couch where I "see" them and look like I'm actually seeing something. It's kind of awkward if someone comes home and sees me walking around the room talking and laughing.  I think this started when I was younger, I used to feel like someone was always there and people followed me even though I didn't talk to them then. It's weird because even when I'm not talking to them I still in my mind feel like someone's there. I'm not sure how to stop this, I've tried for a number of years, I'm always afraid somebody's going to see me doing this.  Even when I have nothing to talk or can't talk I still feel like someone's there watching me wherever I am and I have to talk to them when they're staring at me. Even when I get myself to stop having conversations with them, in my mind they're still there and follow me. I'm not sure why I feel like that. |
My oh my, do I do this. I do tend to cap it off when i'm in public, but let me be in my car (especially) or in my room, or alone in general - and it happens. I actually did that at work the other week and got so caught up in this conversation that I had completely zoned out and came back to find a coworker staring at me confused asking me
who I was talking to. I just busted out laughing.
Where I differ is, I don't feel them in my presence per say, I know its all in my head. I call it my "other world". Sometimes, I get so lost in my head that it just transfers into real life. My T knows about it, and says she thinks 1) they are not hallucinations, 2) it is a coping mechanism for me and 3) i'm lonely. Most recently, she's began creeping into these conversations (also known as "Fake T") and real T is very interested in knowing the things that fake t knows (cause sometimes I have to remember who knows what lol). Its all confusing and sounds crazy, but I think its actually a very okay and to some degree "normal" thing to do.
