Yes you should be happy. Everyone deserves to be happy. I had a lifelong battle with depression until I found the right pdoc. Now I'm basically happy.

But you are right, in the end it is all just stuff. Seeing it that way is depressing, though. It's hard to live in the moment when you are depressed. If you are on the right meds, they take the pain away, but if they are not the right dose, they don't bring you all the way. Also, they take a long time to really work. The other thing you have to do to make it all the way to happy is to learn how to live in the moment, take joy in the simple things in life. It's hard to do. It takes practice. And it probably won't succeed without the proper medication to support you.

Depression struck me down so hard that I had to be hospitalized. At that time in my life, I had everything that I wanted and more. I could find no external reason for my depression and anxiety. I had the perfect life, and it was filled with pain and fear. With the right medications and a little retraining of my thinking, over a period of a couple of years I've overcome it.

You can be happy Woods! It's out there for you. Talk to your pdoc or therapist about your melancholy. It's not a life sentence.

Good luck! We're cheering for you!