I've been there where I can't figure out why I'm not happy. Circumstances would suggest that I would be happy. Am I just being a whiney person? Then I look back at my history & realize most "normal" people don't attempt suicide, crawl into closets crying because I hate myself so much, isolating from those who love me (do they really?), testing my family until they give up on me. I had to go for mental health care if I wanted any quality of life. Got a dx of bp, started on meds & have been working on getting my life into the normal range.--Suzy