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Originally Posted by herethennow
So I'm still living. And still in the dark corner. Failed.
T and pdoc appt coming soon and I... don't know whether I should tell them about my failed sui attempt. I don't feel like fighting anymore. What for fight when I can't see the end? T talked about the journey being a marathon, but here I am thinking "at least a marathon you can clearly see the end... all I see now is the words "I should just give up.""
Was half wanting to meet pdoc earlier the other day because of my attempt but.. again I thought about the previous session and how he didn't really bother to know about me.. so.. I gave up on the idea. Guess I'm alone now. T is just focusing more on other things...
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I was going to post about how I'm not motivated to do much—including replying. But I had to say that I'm glad you're still here. I'm glad the attempt failed. I don't want to imagine you no longer posting on this thread. I know it hurts, I really do, but you have to stick around. Feel free to PM me anytime; I apologize in advance if I take a while to reply, but trust that I'll have read it as soon as I saw it. And please, please don't let that reply go unread.
We're a bit alike, you know; I can relate to so much of what you've written. You can call me selfish, but I don't want to lose you or anyone else here. Life's hard enough without knowing that one of your friends is gone forever. This goes for all of you. I know the pain can be too hard to bear, but you've gotta.