I think a lot of stuff for me is very superficial too IATE. Like, I can tell people a lot of things that are going on in my life, and give all appearances of trusting that person..... but I don't actually trust them at all, and I just seem to wait for the time when they decide that I'm not worth the effort and leave. Until that time, I tell them things and I WANT to trust them... but I don't. I can DO all the things that I am supposed to do, and so for the other person it might even be a great relationship of whatever sort... but for me? It's not... I'm just waiting and trying to make the most of what I think is the best I will ever have or deserve. I don't even know if that makes sense.