thank you both for replying. i dont really have a T right now. i mean i cant see one for another month. in the mean time im just here. im glad both of you are better now. i dont know what to do though. i mean im terrible at opening up to adults..face to face. its as if theres a huge wall and i cant get over it.

what should i do? ive been to a T once and that didn't work because i didn't say anything i wanted to. and when i said it he thought it meant nothing to me...because i just cant tell people how i feel.

how am i supose to fight to be happy if half of me doesn't want it. does anyone ever feel like this? like theres two sides. good and bad. and your split right down the middle??